Every year there is an awakening into life
Every day there is an awakening into life
Every moment there is an awakening into life
If I awaken into life
With breathing or beloved sight
By the way a rain drop surprises me or
When the light falls on my face in the morning
In the fall of 2020 I was in Vermont, hiking
With friends in the woods for a number of days
Swimming with friends for a couple of days
In a cold, clear, little pond
Trees lined the water there, there were trees reflected on it
And as the cold shook me I saw
Myself reflected too
As if to remind me
As if I needed to be reminded
With pond water sticking my hair to me and dripping from me
And tasting good as i sucked on my mustache
And feeling good and cold
So when I, in the morning, dream
I dream of cold water
And the sunlight upon it
And my reflection there, among the light
My love for you is like the moon
First waxing, then waning, but coming back 'round
Sometimes hidden in the heat of the sun, but soon
To dominate again. Passing without sound
Through the sky of our lives, over and over
Seeming at times, like a scorned lover
Kept alive by a light in the bedroom
Or a glance snuck while pushing a broom
But in the moment of that glance, reigniting
As when I see you lying besides me in the morning
Or even just by the memory of the sun's rising
And hardly a moment goes by without something
Bringing to my mind my love for you
Calling me back to where I can be with you
After a run, I lay on the roof
Covered in sweat, with sweat on my face
And tears in my eyes, looking for proof
In the sky, in the clouds, some lingering trace
Of your passage through my wandering life.
It was a long one today, tracing a disoriented line
Past Inman, up Mass, all the way around Alewife,
And the pain and fatigue did a fine
Job of distracting my mind from thoughts of you
But now, on the roof, with my back plastered to the tar
I have nothing left to distract me, save the view
Of open air and clouds. I ran so far
That I thought I had left you behind.
Sunblind, I still see you in the light.